Not engaging in premarital sex. 

Call me lame all you want, (I’ve herd it all before) but its something I’ve always believed in since I was a little girl. I made a promise to myself, and I don’t intend on breaking it. I want to be able to remember the day, time, and everything in between with it being the person I am unconditionally in love with, and plan on spending the rest of my life with. Once a person makes a vow to me, that they will be there by my side “till death do us part” then I know they are in it for the long hall, and not just a temporary deal. I want that special moment of “losing it” to be with someone who is worthy. This is something I will never be able to get back, and I want my future husband to know that I’ve waited for them, so they feel that much more special. 

Let me be me.

And ill let you be you.

I don’t know what it is….but every time I see you..no matter how many months/years have gone by, it’s like I’m right back to square one. All those feelings we had for each other as kids just slaps me in the face when i see you and I get overwhelmed. I know it’s the same for you too because the little things you do and say give it away. I hate that you live so far, I hate that we care about what others think, and I hate that we didn’t pursue something that could have been beautiful. It irritates me how much you lie. I know you’re dating someone and that’s fine. We aren’t anything anyway so why go through the extremities and lie? The fact that you did makes me think even more that you feel as I do. I know you’ll never read this….but I think I’ll forever have feelings for you. No matter how crazy/stupid it makes me look