For some reason writing out the problems im having really helps. Pathetic? maybe…but it helps nonetheless 

So here we go…

Why does fate always put you and I in the same room? ….I mean really. Don’t you think if nothing was meant to happen between us we would have just saw each other through that semester we had together, then MAYBE occasionally around campus from time to time? For some reason I just keep bumping into you, and it just makes me wonder if you think as I do.

I feel like such a stupid little girl with a childish crush on a guy who I barely even know. I mean you’re basically a stranger to me, yet I cant stop thinking about you. And it doesn’t help that you’re so sweet. I swear every time I see you, you make it a point to come say hi. Even today, you walked ALL the way across the library just to say hi. Maybe I’m being a little over-dramatic, I mean you probably do that to EVERY girl you know…but I can hope right? We didnt even talk during the whole semester we had class together, but when we saw eachtoher that one night you made the initiative to come up to me and start a conversation. You didnt have too, I mean we didnt even know eachother….but you did. Why?

It doesn’t help that you’re extremely cute and that you can dance. Or that we danced numerous times together even when I told you I couldn’t keep up haha.

I don’t even remember your name.  

Why am I even questioning every little thing? 

Why do I even care? UGH

I feel so stupid every time I think about you, because i’m sure you don’t think about me. 

I mean why would you? I’m just a stranger. 

I turn 20 In 7 days and counting!

I officially will not be perceived as a “teen” anymore. I don’t know if I can take it! I know its just another year, and I’m still considered young, but honestly this is a bigger jump for me than it was when I turned 18 and was considered “a legal adult” (who can’t buy alcohol go figure).

Im going to be an adult. Im going to be transferring to a State/University in a short 2 semesters from now. Im going to be living on my own. My life is on the right track but its scary. 

Life is just moving way too fast right now.

Look out world, I don’t know if we can handle each other. 

Would I sound CONCEITED if I said I was proud of myself?

Well too bad because I am.

I’ve seriously come a long way from how I used to be. That once “passive” girl is completely gone, and its all for the better. Im focused, determined, and ambitious. I seriously don’t remember the person I was in high school. But I love who I am today, and am happy with myself and the people who have stuck by my side through the process. 

I always seem to think “What if I grew up in a different country”…

Would I be the same person I am today?

What would my financial status be like? 

Would I be in college?

Would I look the same?

Its between that and, what if I was famous?

That too can spring up so many questions.

BUT BACK TO REALITY. Both those things havent happened, and im fine with that

My names Veronica..and I am ordinarily amazing ;)